WTH?!

This was how I used to look like.

:P

Now.

Wei Ling & I. Taken during my 16th birthday.

Now.

Winnie & I. Taken when we're 16.

Now.

LMAO!

I miss my kiddy face. Hah!

♥

Ask me.

I signed up for this.

Click on it.

http://www.formspring.me/vivianng

Well, it's just for fun.

If you have any questions to ask me, just drop them in there.

I'll be more than happy to answer all of them. :D

And obscene questions will be ignore. Thank you.

:)

♥

Emo.

I need someone to cheer me up.

I need someone to make me laugh till I pee and shit on my pants and totally forget about all the sad stuff.

I need a hug.

:(

Feeling so useless.

Feeling like a loser.

Feeling stupid.

Sigh.

Not gonna end with a heart this time.

:/

I want to not be afraid.

Have you ever had this experience where a person you like played with your feelings just because he/she knows you like him/her and then later on he/she got bored with it and can pretend that nothing happens?

And have you ever had this experience where a person you like rejected you because you're short? Like this.

'I was considering to be together with you but you're too short for me.'

Well, I had, both of em'. Damn stupid lorh. =/

And I hate the fact that some people thinks that if a person has never been in a relationship before is weird. Do you think so? Well I think that is just one dumb dumb shit to think that way. Hah!

'Wahseh... You don't have boyfriend before wan ah?', stares at you weirdly.

Dang, so annoying. =.='

Yes, I've never been in a relationship before, so what? It's not like I'm gonna not be in a relationship like, forever? LOL

There are actually reasons why I have been single all my life. Why?

Fear.

I've been through many rejections. Well who doesn't? It hurts, and it sucks.

Secondly, I've saw many and heard many stories from my friends who have been in relationships and the heartbrokenness they get were really deep. Seeing them suffer scares me. =/

I'm afraid I will go through what they went through.

I'm afraid that I will not be good for anyone.

I'm afraid that I will get screw up emotionally.

All in all, part of me does not want to take the chance because of heartbreak la.

So don't ask me why anymore, ok?

Anyway, lets change topic.

Yay! Caliban is coming. Are you going?

Well, I AM! :D

Better get your tickets before March 17th where you can get em' for only RM35!

After March 17th, it will be selling for RM45.

At the door, RM55.

So get em'! Where to buy the tickets? Click on the image to see the venues. They are on the flyer. Hehe. Well, all the infos are there! View it!

So come if you can. Going to gigs it's the best place to release stress.

Trust me!

Though you've got kick on the nose, it's worth it IF only the wound is not serious. Haha!

The neck-ache or body-ache you will experience after all the headbanging, bodybang and moshing feels so awesome.

Crazy I know. Hehe.

Well........

See you there. :)

♥

Evo!

My Evo Clubhouse Showcase gig held on the 7th February.

The gig was awesome, and it's pretty much a relax gig for us. Very chill.

The crowd isn't big but they were really amazing. Giving much support to every band who played that day. :)

Was really glad that Kay Kee came! :D That girl brought me cookies where she baked all of them by herself! So touching can! Thank you so much babe!

And credits to Audrey for the amazing photos. :D

Before our slot, lepak-ed for awhile la. Heh.

Audrey and I. :)

Look at my dumb dumb face.

Kay Kee and I. :D

She's just too cute!

The girls ♥

The dudes from dudesdayout.

Here are some of the bands who played that day. :)

Strawberri

All girls band, Bottlecapt.

These girls make us girls proud! :D

Forgive The Sinners

Unexpected Mercy. :D

Look at Josh.

So got feel. Lol.

Would love to thank Richard and Tommy for coming too. :D

And also Kevin for coming all the way and got lost somewhere. So kesian can!

Though he missed our slot, we all did had fun later on. :)

:)

So, that's it. Hoping for more gigs to come.

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His cross.

Something happened and wasn't sure what that really means.

Anyways, a couple of days ago, I was bored, took out my diary and read.

I haven't been touching it for ages!

I started writing it at the age of 13 and stopped before I turn 16.

It's a very depressing diary I must say.

Disappointments, frustrations, guilts, hurts, loneliness and heartbrokenness.

I did write about happiness, but it was just as big as a size of a green pea.

I was in tears reading through every single page of the diary.

And my eyes are watery even right now blogging about this.

I was in tears NOT because of the hurts, lies, failures, discouragement or anything negative that had happened to me.

I was in tears because I was thankful.

Thankful that The One reached out His hand and saved me from all this.

I am still here because of Him. :)

Listen to this song. It's amazing.

Let us cling to His cross, for He shall save us.

♥

SAOSIN

The second time seeing one of the awesome band live in KL, SAOSIN. :)

My first one was Parkway Drive which was a year ago.

I remember once I found out that Saosin was coming to KL, I was really excited and told myself I must go.

But after knowing the price of the ticket, I was actually thinking twice whether I should go or not.

The ticket was quite pricey and I was almost broke that time. Hah!

At the end, my bro and I decided not to go. =/

Later some day, chatted with Kevin on Facebook. And he told me he was going.

And I was like 'What? I also must go!' LOL

I was so dying to go see them and thought many ways to get the money.

I did save! But still not enough. Like really really not enough.

So, I prayed. :D

After praying, I felt something was telling me to asked my dad.

My dad?? I remember he is the type who doesn't encourage and mostly don't allow me to attend concerts which are costly, real costly, like this one.

I was afraid to ask him and expected his answer to be 'NO!'.

But I told myself why not give it a try la.

I did. Unexpectedly, he said YES! And he is willing to pay the rest of the money which I failed to save!

Thank God for such an amazing dad! :)

So the last day of my finals, my Winnie teman-ed me to buy the tickets! Thank you babe. :D

There I was at KL Life Center, saw Saosin live!

Went there with Kevin. :)

Met new friends, Li Hui and Julian.

Met lots and lots of familiar faces.

Eve, Darren, Scott, Sarah, Nash, Avril and many many many more. Heh!

Supporting act Love Me Butch indeed was amazing. The crowd already went wild once they started playing.

And yes, the crowd went totally insane when Saosin came out, even before they started playing!

Imagine once they start playing. Haha.

Indeed, Saosin was so so so awesome!

The drummer is super-duper-freaking-giler-fulamak awesome! ♥

Everything was awesome.

And fulamak falala, got one huge circle pit weh!

I always wanted to be in a circle pit or a mosh pit. Harhar.

But it's definitely extremely dangerous for a petite bitch like me. I'll be broken into pieces within seconds.

Anyhoos, I had a really great time! A day which I would always remember. :)

So, pictures.

And those pictures aren't mine, stole them from Julian's Facebook. Haha.

Neh, my camera la, not enough battery. Ish. :(

I did not use it to snap Saosin but snap with friends loh.

Love Me Butch

Saosin

Alex Rodriguez. Hehe!

After the show.

Kevin and I.

Rockstar Eve and I

Li Hui and I.

So that's it.

Next up?? Caliban! 11th April. :D

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Lazy bum bum

I'm bored. Yet lazy at the same time.

:)

I have so much to blog actually. But still, I'm lazy to blog those very very long long post.

Anyways, Chinese New Year is coming soon. This means I would be growing fat.

Really 'Gong Hei Fatt Choy' lor.

Hope I would prosper financially, as in receiving lots of ang pau money than prospering physically, as in growing fat la.

And My Evo Clubhouse Showcase gig last Sunday was great. Not the best but still it was good. :)

Credits to Audrey for the amazing photos and Kay Kee for the videos. ♥

As usual, I will blog about this later on. Lazy la. :P

So, that's about it.

Gotta bounce. Heading for a meeting soon.

Adios.

♥

Inspiración

Amanda Hendrick

Best known as Oli Sykes girlfriend. :)

Beautiful. Attractive. Breathtaking. Elegant.

Fascinating. Unique. Gorgeous. Fashionable.

Her looks, perfect.

♥

:)

Feeling so much better :)

Thank you Jesus.

♥

Weak little heart.

Afraid. Anxious. Intimidated.

Confused. Frustrated. Worried.

She got this feeling that the same thing is going to happen again.

She knows shit happens.

But can this same old thing turn out to be good for once?

She's tired. Her heart aches.

All she can do now is to hope for the best.

Lord, she needs You and You alone.

She is me.

I am her.

I'm not lucky. I'm blessed.

'Amoi, sudah Feblualy liao lorh.'

Seriously, I didn't realize it was February already. No wonder my friends used to called me the 'Blur Vivi'.

I really that blur meh?? :/

Anyways, my Rachio Babyla. ♥

This girl of mine has been really supportive.

Your prayers and encouragement had helped me strived through the most depressing time of my life.

And it's fun to be with you cause you made me laugh till I pee pee on my pants. Hehe!

Do take note I learn that 'pee pee' phrase from you too. HAHA!

You're a blessing la babe! :D

Last weekend, spent me time with my family.

My bro & I

Momma and I

You'll seldom see daddy in pictures because he doesn't like taking pictures. Oh well.

And I went to watch Saosin live!

They are super duper freaking incredible!

Will update more on this on my next post la.

Hehe!

Colored my hair red last week.

The result is this.

But the color started to fade again.

Ish.

So, I guess I'll stop here. :)

Till then.

♥

I'm happy, I guess.

Hello people! :)

I'm done with my finals! Finally.

Having my semester break.

Man, I need a job! I need money!

Unexpected Mercy is having a gig on the 7th Feb @ MyEvo Clubhouse.

Be there if you can make it. :D

Hope it will be an awesome one.

I've been craving for gigs lately.

It's like an ultimate torture not being able to gig for a month ya know.

And Saosin on the 1th Feb!

Excited giler siot!

Are you gonna be there?

Because I am!

Teehee!

And this is my new MySpace account.

www.myspace.com/viv_chilipadi

I've created a new one due to some reasons.

My previous account is pretty messed up.

So, yeah.

Anyhoo, gotta bounce.

Will try my best to update more.

Yeah, I know, what a pathetic boring blogger I am.

So lifeless.

Adios.

♥

Me want.

Me want this!

Red hair.
I want very very striking wan. Like this wan!

Me want this too!
And it's in the progress already.
Woohoo!
I can put half of my finger through my earlobe holes now. xD

And lastly, I want him!
Cory La Quay ♥
Can?
:P
Teehee!

Oh, and 2 more papers to go.

After that, Imma party till I drop.

<3

Stress. But yet feeling wonderful.

Exams are stressing me up.

2 down, 4 more to go.
Audit was a disaster.
Management Accounting was not so a disaster, but still, it was a disaster.
:(

So freaking tough to the max loh.

Anyway, I know I did my very best and trusting God, letting Him do the rest. ♥

Oh, and I love this pic. :D
And it was taken in my church.


Yeap, it's Metro Tabernacle.

I bet you heard it in the news.
I'm gonna miss this place so much.
All of us were really sad and heartbroken after this incident.
But this only help us to grow more stronger as a family together.

I love you Metro Tab!

God is indeed blessing us so much more than we could ever imagine.
He is so awesome. Yes, more than AWESOME.

♥

And praise the LORD, we're shifting to our new building soon. :D

So, gotta run.
Law paper next Monday.
Gosh!
Another hardcore brutal paper.
Wish me all the best.
;)

I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me.
Paparazzi.

You don't know who you are, but I know who you are.
xP

<3